Whispering

MY BABBLING...

in the name of Allah the most gracious and the most merciful

now its already 3:35 am
my mind whispers to me..
"wahai manusia..go to sleep"
but my heart wont allowed me to do that..
then i ask my heart

Me:"why my dear? is there something bothering you?"

Heart:"hamba Allah..i know what are you trying to do."

Me:"hmm..im sorry my heart.I had to."

Heart:"I fully respect what are you trying to do.but.."

Me:"but what my heart?"

Heart:"dont throw IT away from me and your life hamba Allah.IT is an award given by Him and you should appreciate IT.not everyone got IT.He wants to guide you to the right path.you know what makes you become lonely,empty,tortured and tormented??"

Me:.....

Heart:"its because you want to throw IT away while IT is yours.He gave IT to you while you want to deny IT.without IT your life become lonely and empty.dont throw IT hamba Allah.i dont want to see you suffering."

Me:"but my heart..im afraid."

Heart:"afraid of what..afraid of loosing her?so thats the reason why you throw IT away from me so you will not depressed or sad of loosing her??

Heart:"hamba Allah.remember this.Allah care and love all His servant.He will not give anything to you just for fun.He give rezeki and nikmat because He loves you.He gave IT because He loves you.why you should afraid of loosing her?you should afraid of loosing IT.IT was made for you.you should be grateful hamba Allah."

Me:"but..."

Heart:"i know she is the best you had ever met in your life and you received IT when you met her.but think wisely hamba Allah.its not her who had changed your life.its Him.He gave you IT.IT leads you to become a better person not her.He can destroy IT whenever He wants."

Heart:"hamba Allah,have faith in Him.He shall decide what the best for you.dont be cruel hamba Allah."

Me:"hmm..im really sorry my heart.i wont do that again.thank you my heart.thank you Allah for giving IT to me.i should take a good care of IT.i will hold IT deep in my heart until my last breath as a khalifah in this world."

Heart:"thank you hamba Allah.i know you are trying to change.IM REALLY PROUD TO BE YOUR HEART.not every heart get the chance to get IT.im always pray that you will become a better person one day and i hope you will get what you want in your life."


SHE..thank you for appearing in my life although it was just a moment...

IT..i will keep you deep in my heart...


what is IT???
adult enough to think...
tata..off to sleep=p
alhamdulillah..